I always thought that I could do it. I always thought that I can handle all the stress.. There’s a saying, it goes “You could be old when you’re young and young when you’re old.” It’s only now, the month before my 16th birthday I feel like I’m seriously in my 20’s. I mean who am I kidding? I’m just a kid. I’m just a kid I keep telling myself. I don’t need all this bullshit stress; man.. I just wanna make life simple. I just wanna be able to not worry about shit all and just chill with my girl and hoop. But I guess dealing with all this shit is just another way of god telling me to man the fuck up because the real game is right around the corner. Nobody’s gonna be there to help you out when you can’t pay the bills or when you’re out on the corner begging for a dime to eat some broke ass meal at Mcdonalds. Lol.. I really don’t know where I’m going with this open minded rant, I just needed somewhere to say shit ha. Fuck I don’t even use tumblr as often anymore, but I guess to sum this up and to give a pointer to the people who follow me and actually read this stuff, live the life YOU wanna live, YOU dictate the type of person you wanna be.. Because at the end of the day, you’re only as old as you feel and you’re always in control.
Southside - Lloyd